Lately I've been feeling like I am sleep-walking all day. My days have become pretty routine. Although they vary in the little things (when I wake up, what I do while Annie's napping, etc) everything is pretty much the same. I get up, make breakfast, wash dishes, do my daily chores, and then hang out with Annie until lunch and nap time, and wait until she wakes up and hang out some more until James gets home at which time I make dinner and then we watch TV until bed. Don't get me wrong, this is the life I wanted my mom to be living when I was little. Our house is clean, Annie is having fun with her mommy, the dishes are always done, all that fun stuff. I'm bored though.
When I was taking classes at the university, I hated having to get up and leave Annie and sit by myself in classrooms learning things I saw no use for. I decided that not only did Annie need me at home, I needed me at home. I just wasn't happy there. So after last spring, I "quit" school. I'll go back someday, but I had other things I wanted to do right now.
One thing I've noticed is that if I stay in my pajamas any later than 7am, I tend to feel lazier than if I had gotten dressed before then. I have no excuse to not get dressed, my laundry is always done. If I wasn't feeling so lazy all the time, maybe me and Annie can take advantage of our Treehouse and Dinosaur Park memberships. I suppose, then, my next goal should be to always be "ready to go somewhere" by 7am. I think I can do that.
I loves you!
Man is born to life, not to prepare for life.
-Doctor Zhivago
Surprise! I didn't get dressed today again! Gonna be a lazy day I guess.
ReplyDeleteWe have a dino pass too! We should go, anytime during school hours. Call me!
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